March

So I think this month is going to be a month of reflecting. Or at least this week will be. I have just been looking back over the last couple days at the last 12 years of my life and what I have done (good and bad) and who I have become (good and bad).
What prompts this you ask? This past Sunday was the 12 year anniversary of a focal changing point in my life. The day I got married. I would not be where I am today or who I am today if it had not been for that one act. And at 19 years old....it was a very un-informed act.
Looking back and seeing all of the good things I have done with my life (Gabby, for instance) and all of the mistakes I have made, has been extremely humbling.
Have I done all that God wanted me to do? Not even close. But I have made an effort to better myself and am trying to do a better job at following his plan for me.
Have I been a good parent? I really hope so...b/c if not, the next couple of years are going to be hell.
Have I been a good child? Yes, but not nearly as good as I could have been.
Was I a good wife? Am I good ex-wife? These are questions that plague me regularly. And only one person can answer. I will never ask these questions out loud because I am too scared to hear his answer.
Have I been a good sibling? I think so, but over the years my sister and I have grown so much closer and my brother and I have drifted so far apart.
Have I been a good friend? Have I been there when they needed me? I think so, but I also know that I am selfish. And that I don't always take the time to tell my friends how much they mean to me. (you guys mean a lot to me...I couldn't have made it this far without you).

So. This is what I have been doing...driving myself crazy over the last few days. Any advice is appreciated at this point.

Cheers.