Sunday, March 23, 2008
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
March
So I think this month is going to be a month of reflecting. Or at least this week will be. I have just been looking back over the last couple days at the last 12 years of my life and what I have done (good and bad) and who I have become (good and bad).
What prompts this you ask? This past Sunday was the 12 year anniversary of a focal changing point in my life. The day I got married. I would not be where I am today or who I am today if it had not been for that one act. And at 19 years old....it was a very un-informed act.
Looking back and seeing all of the good things I have done with my life (Gabby, for instance) and all of the mistakes I have made, has been extremely humbling.
Have I done all that God wanted me to do? Not even close. But I have made an effort to better myself and am trying to do a better job at following his plan for me.
Have I been a good parent? I really hope so...b/c if not, the next couple of years are going to be hell.
Have I been a good child? Yes, but not nearly as good as I could have been.
Was I a good wife? Am I good ex-wife? These are questions that plague me regularly. And only one person can answer. I will never ask these questions out loud because I am too scared to hear his answer.
Have I been a good sibling? I think so, but over the years my sister and I have grown so much closer and my brother and I have drifted so far apart.
Have I been a good friend? Have I been there when they needed me? I think so, but I also know that I am selfish. And that I don't always take the time to tell my friends how much they mean to me. (you guys mean a lot to me...I couldn't have made it this far without you).
So. This is what I have been doing...driving myself crazy over the last few days. Any advice is appreciated at this point.
Cheers.
What prompts this you ask? This past Sunday was the 12 year anniversary of a focal changing point in my life. The day I got married. I would not be where I am today or who I am today if it had not been for that one act. And at 19 years old....it was a very un-informed act.
Looking back and seeing all of the good things I have done with my life (Gabby, for instance) and all of the mistakes I have made, has been extremely humbling.
Have I done all that God wanted me to do? Not even close. But I have made an effort to better myself and am trying to do a better job at following his plan for me.
Have I been a good parent? I really hope so...b/c if not, the next couple of years are going to be hell.
Have I been a good child? Yes, but not nearly as good as I could have been.
Was I a good wife? Am I good ex-wife? These are questions that plague me regularly. And only one person can answer. I will never ask these questions out loud because I am too scared to hear his answer.
Have I been a good sibling? I think so, but over the years my sister and I have grown so much closer and my brother and I have drifted so far apart.
Have I been a good friend? Have I been there when they needed me? I think so, but I also know that I am selfish. And that I don't always take the time to tell my friends how much they mean to me. (you guys mean a lot to me...I couldn't have made it this far without you).
So. This is what I have been doing...driving myself crazy over the last few days. Any advice is appreciated at this point.
Cheers.
Monday, March 3, 2008
Funny, Funny, Funny
So I just stole this link off my friend Jeanne's blog, which she got from our friend Courtney, but this has to be one of the funniest blogs I have seen.
http://stuffwhitepeoplelike.wordpress.com/
http://stuffwhitepeoplelike.wordpress.com/
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